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  ‘I could make you commit murder,’ said Mr Hill.

  ‘You could not.’

  ‘I could.’ Mr Hill looked out over the small green summer town, meditatively.

  ‘You can’t make a murderer out of a nonmurderer.’

  ‘Yes, I could.’

  ‘No, you couldn’t!’

  ‘How much would you like to bet?’

  ‘I’ve never bet in my life. Don’t believe in it.’

  ‘Oh, hell, a gentleman’s bet,’ said Mr Hill. ‘A dollar. A dollar to a dime. Come on, now, you’d bet a dime, wouldn’t you? You’d be three kinds of Scotchman not to, and showing little faith in your thesis, besides. Isn’t it worth a dime to prove you’re not a murderer?’

  ‘You’re joking.’

  ‘We’re both joking and we’re both not. All I’m interested in proving is that you’re no different than any other man. You’ve got a button to be pushed. If I could find it and push it, you’d commit murder.’

  Mr Bentley laughed easily and cut the end from a cigar, twirled it between his comfortably fleshy lips, and leaned back in his rocker. Then he fumbled in his unbuttoned vest pocket, found a dime, and laid it on the porch newel in front of him. ‘All right,’ he said, and, thinking, drew forth another dime. ‘There’s twenty cents says I’m not a murderer. Now how are you going to prove that I am?’ He chuckled and squeezed his eyes deliciously shut. ‘I’m going to be sitting around here a good many years.’

  ‘There’ll be a time limit, of course.’

  ‘Oh, will there?’ Bentley laughed still louder.

  ‘Yes. One month from today, you’ll be a murderer.’

  ‘One month from today, eh? Ho!’ And he laughed, because the idea was so patently ridiculous. Recovering enough, he put his tongue in his cheek. ‘Today’s August first, right? So on September first, you owe me a dollar.’

  ‘No, you’ll owe me two dimes.’

  ‘You’re stubborn, aren’t you?’

  ‘You don’t know how stubborn.’

  It was a fine late-summer evening, with just the right breeze, a lack of mosquitoes, two cigars burning the right way, and the sound of Mr Bentley’s wife clashing the dinner plates into soapsuds in the distant kitchen. Along the streets of the small town, people were coming out onto their porches, nodding at one another.

  ‘This is one of the most foolish conversations I’ve ever held in my life,’ said Mr Bentley, sniffing the air with glad appreciation, noting the smell of fresh-cut grass. ‘We talk about murder for ten minutes, we get off into whether all of us are capable of murder, and, next thing you know, we’ve made a bet.’

  ‘Yes,’ said Mr Hill.

  Mr Bentley looked over at his boarder. Mr Hill was about fifty-five, though he looked a bit older, with cold blue eyes, and a gray face, and lines that made it look like an apricot that has been allowed to shrivel in the sun. He was neatly bald, like a Caesar, and had an intense way of talking, gripping the chair, gripping your arm, gripping his own hands together as if in prayer, always convincing himself or convincing you of the truth of his exclamations. They had had many good talks in the past three months, since Mr Hill had moved into the back bedroom. They had talked of myriad things: locusts in spring, snow in April, seasonal tempests and coolings, trips to far places, the usual talk, scented with tobacco, comfortable as a full dinner, and there was a feeling in Mr Bentley that he had grown up with this stranger, known him from his days as a yelling child through bumpy adolescence to whitening senility. This, come to think of it, was the first time they had ever disagreed on anything. The wonderful thing about their friendship had been that it had so far excluded any quibblings or side issues, and had walked the straight way of Truth, or what the two men thought was truth, or perhaps, thought Mr Bentley now, with the cigar in his hand, what he had thought was the truth and what Mr Hill, out of politeness or plan, had pretended to take for the truth also.

  ‘Easiest money I ever made,’ said Mr Bentley.

  ‘Wait and see. Carry those dimes with you. You may need them soon.’

  Mr Bentley put the coins into his vest pocket, half soberly. Perhaps a turn in the wind had, for a moment, changed the temperature of his thoughts. For a moment, his mind said, Well, could you murder? Eh?

  ‘Shake on it,’ said Mr Hill.

  Mr Hill’s cold hand gripped tightly.

  ‘It’s a bet.’

  ‘All right, you fat slob, good night,’ said Mr Hill, and got up.

  ‘What?’ cried Mr Bentley, startled, not insulted yet, but because he couldn’t believe that terrible use of words.

  ‘Good night, slob,’ said Mr Hill, looking at him calmly. His hands were busy, moving aside the buttons on his summer shirt. The flesh of his lean stomach was revealed. There was an old scar there. It looked as if a bullet had gone cleanly through.

  ‘You see,’ said Mr Hill, seeing the wide popping eyes of the plump man in the rocking chair, ‘I’ve made this bet before.’

  The front door shut softly. Mr Hill was gone.

  The light was burning in Mr Hill’s room at ten minutes after one. Sitting there in the dark, Mr Bentley at last, unable to find sleep, got up and moved softly into the hall and looked at Mr Hill. For the door was open and there was Mr Hill standing before a mirror, touching, tapping, pinching himself, now here, now there.

  And he seemed to be thinking to himself, Look at me! Look, here, Bentley, and here!

  Bentley looked.

  There were three round scars on Hill’s chest and stomach. There was a long slash scar over his heart, and a little one on his neck. And on his back, as if a dragon had pulled its talons across in a furious raveling, a series of terrible furrows.

  Mr Bentley stood with his tongue between his lips, his hands open.

  ‘Come in,’ said Mr Hill.

  Bentley did not move.

  ‘You’re up late.’

  ‘Just looking at myself. Vanity, vanity.’

  ‘Those scars, all those scars.’

  ‘There are a few, aren’t there?’

  ‘So many. My God, I’ve never seen scars like that. How did you get them?’

  Hill went on preening and feeling and caressing himself, stripped to the waist. ‘Well, now maybe you can guess.’ He winked and smiled friendlily.

  ‘How did you get them?!’

  ‘You’ll wake your wife.’

  ‘Tell me!’

  ‘Use your imagination, man.’

  He exhaled and inhaled and exhaled again.

  ‘What can I do for you, Mr Bentley?’

  ‘I’ve come—’

  ‘Speak up.’

  ‘I want you to move out.’

  ‘Oh now, Bentley.’

  ‘We need this room.’

  ‘Really?’

  ‘My wife’s mother is coming to visit.’

  ‘That’s a lie.’

  Bentley nodded. ‘Yes. I’m lying.’

  ‘Why don’t you say it? You want me to leave, period.’

  ‘Right.’

  ‘Because you’re afraid of me.’

  ‘No, I’m not afraid.’

  ‘Well, what if I told you I wouldn’t leave?’

  ‘No, you couldn’t do that.’

  ‘Well, I could, and I am.’

  ‘No, no.’

  ‘What are we having for breakfast, ham and eggs again?’ He craned his neck to examine that little scar there.

  ‘Please say you’ll go,’ asked Mr Bentley.

  ‘No,’ said Mr Hill.

  ‘Please.’

  ‘There’s no use begging. You make yourself look silly.’

  ‘Well, then, if you stay here, let’s call off the bet.’

  ‘Why call it off?’

  ‘Because.’

  ‘Afraid of yourself?’

  ‘No, I’m not!’

  ‘Shh.’ He pointed to the wall. ‘Your wife.’

  ‘Let’s call off the bet. Here. Here’s my money. You win!’ He groped frantically into his pocket and drew forth
the two dimes. He threw them on the dresser, crashing. ‘Take them! You win! I could commit murder, I could, I admit it.’

  Mr Hill waited a moment, and without looking at the coins, put his fingers down on the dresser, groped, found them, picked them up, clinked them, held them out. ‘Here.’

  ‘I don’t want them back!’ Bentley retreated to the doorway.

  ‘Take them.’

  ‘You win!’

  ‘A bet is a bet. This proves nothing.’

  He turned and came to Bentley and dropped them in Bentley’s shirt pocket and patted them. Bentley took two steps back into the hall. ‘I do not make bets idly,’ Hill said.

  Bentley stared at those terrible scars. ‘How many other people have you made this bet with!’ he cried. ‘How many?!’

  Hill laughed. ‘Ham and eggs, eh?’

  ‘How many?! How many?!’

  ‘See you at breakfast,’ said Mr Hill.

  He shut the door. Mr Bentley stood looking at it. He could see the scars through the door, as if by some translucency of the eye and mind. The razor scars. The knife scars. They hung in the paneling, like knots in old wood.

  The light went out behind the door.

  He stood over the body and he heard the house waking up, rushing, the feet down the stairs, the shouts, the half screams and stirrings. In a moment, people would be flooding around him. In a moment, there’d be a siren and a flashing red light, the car doors slamming, the snap of manacles to the fleshy wrists, the questions, the peering into his white, bewildered face. But now he only stood over the body, fumbling. The gun had fallen into the deep, good-smelling night grass. The air was still charged with electricity but the storm was passing, and he was beginning to notice things again. And there was his right hand, all by itself, fumbling about like a blind mole, digging, digging senselessly at his shirt pocket until it found what it wanted. And he felt his gross weight bend, stoop, almost fall, as he almost rushed down over the body. His blind hand went out and closed the up-staring eyes of Mr Hill, and on each wrinkled, cooling eyelid put a shiny new dime.

  The door slammed behind him. Hattie screamed.

  He turned to her with a sick smile. ‘I just lost a bet,’ he heard himself say.

  When the Bough Breaks

  The night was cold and there was a slight wind which had begun to rise around two in the morning.

  The leaves in all the trees outside began to tremble.

  By three o’clock the wind was constant and murmuring outside the window.

  She was the first to open her eyes.

  And then, for some imperceptible reason, he stirred in his half sleep.

  ‘You awake?’ he said.

  ‘Yes,’ she said. ‘There was a sound, something called.’

  He half raised his head.

  A long way off there was a soft wailing.

  ‘Hear that?’ she asked.

  ‘What?’

  ‘Something’s crying.’

  ‘Something?’ he said.

  ‘Someone,’ she said. ‘It sounds like a ghost.’

  ‘My God, what a thing. What time is it?’

  ‘Three in the morning. That terrible hour.’

  ‘Terrible?’ he said.

  ‘You know Dr Meade told us at the hospital that that’s the one hour when people just give up, they don’t keep trying anymore. That’s when they die. Three in the morning.’

  ‘I’d rather not think about that,’ he said.

  The sound from outside the house grew louder.

  ‘There it is again,’ she said. ‘That sounds like a ghost.’

  ‘Oh my God,’ he whispered. ‘What kind of ghost?’

  ‘A baby,’ she said. ‘A baby crying.’

  ‘Since when do babies have ghosts? Have we known any babies recently that died?’ He made a soft sound of laughter.

  ‘No,’ she said, and shook her head back and forth. ‘But maybe it’s not the ghost of a baby that died, but…I don’t know. Listen.’

  He listened and the crying came again, a long way off.

  ‘What if—’ she said.

  ‘Yes?’

  ‘What if it’s the ghost of a child—’

  ‘Go on,’ he said.

  ‘That hasn’t been born yet.’

  ‘Are there such ghosts? And can they make sounds? My God, why do I say that? What a strange thing to say.’

  ‘The ghost of a baby that hasn’t been born yet.’

  ‘How can it have a voice?’ he said.

  ‘Maybe it’s not dead, but just wants to live,’ she said. ‘It’s so far off, so sad. How can we answer it?’

  They both listened and the quiet cry continued and the wind wailed outside the window.

  Listening, tears came into her eyes and, listening, the same thing happened to him.

  ‘I can’t stand this,’ he said. ‘I’m going to get up and get something to eat.’

  ‘No, no,’ she said, and took his hand and held it. ‘Be very quiet and listen. Maybe we’ll get answers.’

  He lay back and held her hand and tried to shut his eyes, but could not.

  They both lay in bed and the wind continued murmuring, and the leaves shook outside the window.

  A long way off, a great distance off, the sound of weeping went on and on.

  ‘Who could that be?’ she said. ‘What could that be? It won’t stop. It makes me so sad. Is it asking to be let in?’

  ‘Let in?’ he said.

  ‘To live. It’s not dead, it’s never lived, but it wants to live. Do you think—’ She hesitated.

  ‘What?’

  ‘Oh my God,’ she said. ‘Do you think the way we talked a month ago…?’

  ‘What talk was that?’ he said.

  ‘About the future. About our not having a family. No family. No children.’

  ‘I don’t remember,’ he said.

  ‘Try to,’ she said. ‘We promised each other no family, no children.’ She hesitated and then added, ‘No babies.’

  ‘No children. No babies?’

  ‘Do you think—’ She raised her head and listened to the crying outside the window, far away, through the trees, across the country. ‘Can it be that—’

  ‘What?’ he said.

  ‘I think,’ she said, ‘that I know a way to stop that crying.’

  He waited for her to continue.

  ‘I think that maybe—’

  ‘What?’ he said.

  ‘Maybe you should come over on this side of the bed.’

  ‘Are you asking me over?’

  ‘I am, yes, please, come over.’

  He turned and looked at her and finally rolled completely over toward her. A long way off the town clock struck three-fifteen, then three-thirty, then three forty-five, then four o’clock.

  Then they both lay, listening.

  ‘Do you hear?’ she said.

  ‘I’m listening.’

  ‘The crying.’

  ‘It’s stopped,’ he said.

  ‘Yes. That ghost, that child, that baby, that crying, thank God it stopped.’

  He held her hand, turned his face toward her, and said, ‘We stopped it.’

  ‘We did,’ she said. ‘Oh yes, thank God, we stopped it.’

  The night was very quiet. The wind began to die. The leaves on the trees outside stopped trembling.

  And they lay in the night, hand in hand, listening to the silence, the wonderful silence, and waited for the dawn.

  We’ll Always Have Paris

  It was a hot Saturday night in July in Paris, near midnight, when I prepared to head out and walk around the city, my favorite pastime, starting at Notre Dame and ending, sometimes, at the Eiffel Tower.

  My wife had gone to bed at nine o’clock and as I stood by the door she said, ‘No matter how late, bring back some pizza.’

  ‘One pizza coming up,’ I said, and stepped out into the hall.

  I walked from the hotel across the river and along to Notre Dame and then stopped in at the Shakespeare Bo
okstore and headed back along the Boul Miche to stop at Les Deux Magots, the outdoor café where Hemingway, more than a generation ago, had regaled his friends with Pernod, grappa, and Africa.

  I sat there for a while watching the Parisians, of which there was a multitude, had myself a Pernod and a beer, and then headed back toward the river.

  The street leading away from Les Deux Magots was no more than an alley lined with antiques stores and art galleries.

  I walked along, almost alone, and was nearing the Seine when a peculiar thing happened, the strangest thing that had ever happened in my life.

  I realized I was being followed. But it was a strange kind of following.

  I looked behind me and no one was there. I looked ahead about forty yards and saw a young man in a summer suit.

  At first I didn’t realize what he was doing. But when I stopped to look in a window and glanced up, I saw that he had stopped eighty or ninety feet ahead of me and was looking back, watching me.

  As soon as he saw my glance he walked away, farther on up the street, where he stopped again and looked back.

  After a few more of these silent exchanges, it came to me what was going on. Instead of following me from behind, he was following me by leading the way and looking back to make sure that I came along.

  The process continued for an entire city block and then finally, at last, I came to an intersection and found him waiting for me.

  He was tall and slender and blond and quite handsome and seemed, somehow, to be French; he looked athletic, perhaps a tennis player or a swimmer.

  I didn’t know quite how I felt about the situation. Was I pleased, was I flattered, was I embarrassed?

  Suddenly, confronted with him, I stood at the intersection and said something in English and he shook his head.

  He said something in French and I shook my head and then both of us laughed.

  ‘No French?’ he said.

  I shook my head.

  ‘No English?’ I said, and he shook his head and, again, we both laughed because here we were, past midnight in Paris, at an intersection, unable to talk to each other and not quite knowing what we were doing there.

  At last, he lifted one hand and pointed off down a side street.

  He said a name and I thought it was the name of someone: ‘Jim.’ I shook my head in confusion.

  He repeated himself, and then clarified the word. ‘Gymnasium,’ he said as he pointed again, stepped off the walk into the street, and turned to see if I was following.