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  “1928.”

  “All buried here, for sure?”

  Grey looked sour. “I have never once in all my life been wrong. Strange, however.” He rescanned the items he had drawn out of the file. “Odd. Are they all related, all one family? ”

  “How do you mean?”

  Grey fixed his arctic stare at the names. “Because, see here, they’re all entombed in the same aboveground Gothic stone hut.”

  “How’s that again?” Crumley lurched from his boredom and grabbed the file cards. “What?”

  “Odd, all those different surnames, put to rest in one tomb, a memorial dwelling with eight shelves for eight family members.”

  “But they aren’t family!” said Fritz.

  “Odd,” said Grey. “Strange.”

  I stood as if struck by lightning.

  “Hold on,” I whispered.

  Fritz and Crumley and Henry turned to me.

  Grey lifted his snowy eyebrows. “Ye-e-ss.” He made two long syllables out of it. “Well?”

  “The tomb house? The family vault? There must be a name on the portico. The name chiseled in marble?”

  Grey scanned his cards, making us wait.

  “Rattigan,” he said.

  “Are you sure?”

  “I have never—”

  “Yes, I know! The name again!”

  We all held our breath.

  “Rattigan.” His cold voice issued from a steel-trap mouth.

  We let our air out.

  At last I said, “They can’t all be there in that one vault.”

  Grey shut his eyes. “I—”

  “I know, I know,” I said quickly. I stared at my friends.

  “Are you thinking what I’m thinking?”

  “Jesus Christ,” murmured Crumley. “Goddamn. Can you give us directions to the Rattigan tomb?”

  Grey scribbled on a notepad map. “Easy to find. There’re fresh flowers out front. The tomb door is open. There will be a memorial service there tomorrow.”

  “Who’s being entombed?”

  We all waited, eyes shut, guessing the answer.

  “Rattigan,” said Grey, almost smiling. “Someone named Constance Rattigan.”

  Chapter Forty-Five

  The rain was so thick the graveyard disappeared. All we could see as we drove uphill in an electric runabout were monuments on the side of the road. The path ahead vanished in the downpour. I carried a map on my lap, marked with an arrow and the name of the area. We stopped.

  “It’s there,” said Crumley. “Azalia Gardens? Plot sixteen. Neo-Palladian edifice.”

  The rain blew back like a curtain and a flicker of lightning showed us a slender tomb with Palladian pillars on each side of a tall metal door, which stood ajar.

  “So if she wants out,” said Henry, “she’s out. Or invite folks in. Rattigan!”

  The rain lifted and blew away and the tomb waited while thunder ran along the far brim of the graveyard. The open door trembled.

  Crumley spoke almost to himself: “Jesus! Constance buried herself. Name after name. Year after year. When she was done with one act, one face, one mask, she hired a tomb and stashed herself away. And now, to get the job, maybe, from Fritz, she’s killing all her selves again. Don’t go in there, Willie.”

  “She’s in there now,” I said.

  “Horse apples,” said Crumley. “Goddamn intuition?”

  “No.” I shivered. “Goddamn hunch. She’s got to be saved.” I climbed out.

  “She’s dead!”

  “I’ll save her anyway.”

  “Like hell you will!” said Crumley. “You’re under arrest! Get back in here!”

  “You’re the law, sure, but you’re my friend.”

  I was flooded with cold rain.

  “Dammit, dammit all to hell. Go on! Run, you stupid idiot! We’ll be waiting downhill. I’ll be goddamned if I’ll sit and watch your head come flying out that goddamn door. Come find us! Damn you!”

  “Hold on!” Fritz cried.

  “Hold goddamn nothing!”

  Fritz threw a small flask that hit me in the chest.

  I stood shivering in the cold downpour and gave Fritz a long look as Crumley, cursing, got out of the runabout slowly. We stood in the big mortuary field with an open iron gate and open tomb door and the rain threatening to wash the bodies out of the earth. I shut my eyes and drank the vodka.

  “Ready or not,” I whispered. “Here goes.”

  “Goddammit,” said Crumley.

  Chapter Forty-Six

  It was a dark and stormy night.

  My God, I thought, again?

  Feet running. A cry. Lightning, thunder, a few nights back.

  And here, my God, the same again!

  The gates of heaven burst, a flood poured in darkness, with me near a cold tomb with someone crazed and maybe dead deep in the dark.

  Stop, I told myself.

  Touch.

  The outer gate creaked. The inner door squealed.

  We stood in the entry of the marble tomb with the sun gone, never to return, and the rain to rain forever.

  It was dark, but there were three small blue votive candles lit and wavering in the draft from the door.

  We all looked at the sarcophagus down below on our right.

  Holly’s name was there. But there was no lid on the sarcophagus and it was empty, save for a powdering of dust.

  Our eyes looked up to the next shelf.

  Lightning flickered outside in the rain. Thunder mumbled.

  On the next shelf Molly’s name was cut in marble. But again no lid, and the sarcophagus was empty.

  Rain drenched the open door behind us as we looked at the next-to-top and topmost shelves and marble cases. We saw the names of Emily and Polly. We could see one was unoccupied. Trembling, I reached up to probe the top casement. My fingers touched only empty air.

  Holly, Polly, Molly, and Emily, but in the flickers of lightning no bodies, no remains.

  I stared up at that final enclosure and began to reach up when there was the faintest gasp and something like a cold weeping, far away.

  I took my hand down and looked at Crumley. He looked up at the last sarcophagus and at last said, “Junior, it’s all yours.” There was a final intake of breath above in the shadows.

  “Okay,” said Crumley, “everyone out.”

  Everyone backed out into the whispering rain. At the door Crumley looked back at his lunatic child, handed me a flashlight, nodded good luck, and was gone.

  I was alone.

  I pulled back. The flashlight fell. I almost collapsed. It took a long while before I found and raised its beam, my heartbeat quaked with it.

  “You,” I whispered, “there.”

  Jesus, what did that mean?

  “It’s,” I whispered, “me.”

  Louder.

  “I came to find you,” I whispered.

  “So?” the shadow murmured. The rain behind me fell in a solid sheet. Lightning shimmered. But still no thunder.

  “Constance,” I said at last to the dark shape on the tall shelf with the shadows of rain curtaining it. “Listen.”

  And at last I said my name.

  Silence.

  I spoke again.

  Oh God, I thought, she’s really dead!

  No more of this! Get out, damn, go! But even in turning, the slightest shrug, it happened. The shadow above with a faceless face quickened with the merest breath.

  I hardly heard, I only sensed the shadow.

  “What?” it exhaled.

  I quickened, glad for life, any life, any pulse.

  “My name.” I gave it again.

  “Oh,” someone murmured.

  Which hammered me to quicker life. I leaned away from rain into cold tomb air.

  “I’ve come to save you,” I whispered.

  “So?” the voice murmured.

  It was the merest mosquito dance in the air, not heard, no, not there. How could a dead woman speak?

  “
Good,” the whisper said. “Night.”

  “Don’t sleep!” I cried. “Sleep and you won’t come back! Don’t die.”

  “Why?” came the murmur.

  “Because,” I gasped. “Because. I say so.”

  “Say.” A sigh.

  Jesus, I thought, say something!

  “Say!” said the faintest shadow.

  “Come out!” I murmured. “This isn’t your place!”

  “Yes.” The faintest brush of sound.

  “No!” I cried.

  “Mine,” came the breath in the shadow.

  “I’ll help you get away,” I said.

  “From what?” the shadow said. And then, in terrible fear: “Gone. They are gone!”

  “They?”

  “Gone? They’ve got to be! Are they?”

  Lightning struck the dark acres at last, thunder knocked the tomb. I spun to stare out at the meadows of stone, the hills of shining slabs with names being sluiced away. And the slabs and stones were lit by the fires in the sky and became names on mirror glass, photos on walls, inked names on papers, and again mirror names and dates being washed away down a storm drain while the pictures fell from the walls and the film slithered through the projector to dance faces on a silver screen ten thousand miles below. Pictures, mirrors, films. Films, mirrors, pictures. Names, dates, names.

  “Are they still there?” said the shadow on the top shelf of the tomb.

  “Out there in the rain?”

  I looked out at the long hill of the mortuary place. The rain was falling on a dozen and a hundred and a thousand stones.

  “They mustn’t be there,” she said. “I thought they were gone forever. But then they began to knock at the door, wake me. I swam out to my friends, the seals. But no matter how far I swam, they were waiting for me on the shore. The whisperers who want to remember what I want to forget.”

  She hesitated. “So if I couldn’t outrun them, I’d have to kill them one by one, one by one. Who were they? Me? So I chased them instead of them me, and one by one I found where they were buried and buried them again. 1925, then 1928, 1930, ’35. Where they would stay forever. Now it’s time to lie down and sleep forever, or they might call me again at three in the morning. So, where am I?”

  The rain fell outside the crypt. There was a long moment of silence and I said, “You’re here, Constance, and I’m here, listening.”

  After a while she said, “Are they all gone, is the shore clear now, can I swim back in and not be afraid?”

  I said, “Yes, Constance, they’re really buried. You did the job. Someone had to forgive you, that someone had to be Constance. Come out.”

  “Why?” said the voice from the top shelf of the tomb.

  “Because,” I said, “this is all crazy, but you’re needed. So, please, rest for a moment, and then put your hand out and let me help you down. Do you hear me, Constance?”

  The sky went dark. The fires died. The rain fell, erasing the stones and slabs and the names, the names, the terrible names cut to last but dissolving in grass.

  “Are they?” came the frantic whisper.

  And I said, my eyes filled with cold rain, “Yes.”

  “Yes?”

  “Yes,” I said. “The yard’s empty. The picture’s dropped. The mirrors are clean. Now there’s only you and me.”

  The rain washed the unseen stones sinking deep in the flooded grass.

  “Come out,” I said quietly.

  Rain fell. Water slid on the road. The monuments, stones, slabs, and names were lost.

  “Constance, one final thing.”

  “What?” she whispered.

  After a long pause I said, “Fritz Wong is waiting. The screenplay is finished. The sets are built and ready.”

  I shut my eyes and agonized to remember.

  Then, at last, I remembered: “ ‘Only for my voices, I would lose all heart.’ ”

  I hesitated, then continued: “ ‘It is in the bells I hear my voices. The bells come down from heaven and the echoes linger. In the quiet of the countryside, my voices are there. Without them I would lose heart.’ ”

  Silence.

  A shadow moved. A white shape motioned.

  The tips of her fingers came out into the shadows and then her hand and then the slender arm.

  Then, after a long silence, a deep breath, an exhalation, Constance said: “I’m coming down.”

  Chapter Forty-Seven

  The storm was gone. It was as if it had never been. The sky was clean, not a cloud anywhere, and a fresh breeze was blowing as if to clean a slate, or a mirror, or a mind.

  I stood on the beach in front of Rattigan’s Arabian fort with Crumley and Henry, mostly silent, and Fritz Wong surveying the scene for long shots and close-ups.

  Inside the house two men in white coveralls moved like shadows and I was put in mind of altar attendants somehow, the mind of a crazed writer freely associating, and I wished that somehow, wild as it seemed, Father Rattigan could be there, could be one of those white figures cleaning the house with a censer of incense and a rain of holy water, to re-sanctify a place that had probably never been anywhere near sanctified. Good God, I thought, bring a priest to cleanse a den of iniquity! The housepainters, inside, scraping the walls clean in order to apply fresh paint, worked steadily, not knowing whose house it was and what had lived there. Outside on a table by the pool were some beers for Crumley, Fritz, Henry, and myself, and vodka, if our mood changed.

  The smell of fresh paint was invigorating; it promised a lunatic redemption, and an echo of forgiveness. New paint, new life? Please, God.

  “How far out does she go?” Crumley stared at the breakers a hundred yards off shore.

  “Don’t ask me,” said Henry.

  “Out with the seals,” I said, “or sometimes in close. She has a lot of friends out there. Hear?”

  The seals were barking, louder or softer I couldn’t say, I only heard. It was a glad sound to go with the fresh paint in an old house made new.

  “Tell the painters when they paint her mailbox,” said Fritz, “to leave room for just one name, ja?”

  “Right,” said Henry. He cocked his head to one side, and then frowned. “She’s been swimming a long time. What if she don’t come in?”

  “That wouldn’t be so bad,” I said. “She loves the water offshore.”

  “Swells after a storm, fine for surfing. Hey! That was loud!”

  The kind of loud that made for a theatrical entrance.

  With superb timing, a cab roared up in the alley behind Rattigan’s.

  “God!” I said. “I know who that is!”

  A door slammed. A woman came slogging across the sand that ran between the house and seaside pool, her hands clenched in tight balls. She stood before me like a blast furnace and raised her fists.

  “What have you got to say for yourself?” Maggie cried.

  “Sorry?” I bleated.

  “Sorry!”

  She hauled off and struck me a terrible blow on the nose.

  “Hit him again,” Crumley suggested.

  “Once more for luck,” offered Fritz.

  “What’s going on?” said Henry.

  “Bastard!”

  “I know.”

  “Son of a bitch!”

  “Yes,” I said.

  She struck a second time.

  The blood gushed. It flooded my chin and drenched my upraised hands. Maggie pulled back.

  “Oh, God,” she cried, “what have I done!”

  “Hit a son of a bitch and bastard,” Fritz answered.

  “Right,” said Crumley.

  “You keep out of this!” Maggie yelled. “Someone get a Band-Aid.”

  I looked at the bright flow on my hands. “Band-Aids won’t work.”

  “Shut up, you stupid womanizer!”

  “Only one,” I bleated.

  “Hold still!” she cried, and raised her fist again.

  I held still and she collapsed.

  “No, no, enoug
h, enough,” she wept. “Oh God, this is terrible.”

  “Go ahead, I deserve it,” I said.

  “Do you, do you?”

  “Yeah,” I said.

  Maggie glared at the far surf. “Where is she? Out there?”

  “Somewhere.”

  “I hope she never comes in!”

  “Me, too.”

  “What in hell does that mean?”

  “I don’t know,” I said as quietly as possible. “Maybe she belongs out there. Maybe she has friends, dumb friends, and maybe she should stay with them and never come in again.”

  “If she does, I’ll kill her.”

  “Then she’s better off staying way out.”

  “Are you defending her, damn you?”

  “No, just saying she should never have come in. She was always happier on days like this, after a storm, when the waves are right and the clouds are gone. I saw her a few times like that. She didn’t drink all day, just kept going out, and there was always the promise she wouldn’t come back.”

  “What got into you? What got into her?”

  “Nobody knows. It happens all the time. No alibis. It’s just things happen, and next thing you know it’s all gone to hell.”

  “Keep talking, maybe you’ll make sense.”

  “No, the more talk the less sense. She was lost for a long time. Now, maybe, she’s found. A lot of bull, a lot of malarkey, I don’t know. I promised her if she swam out with all those names, she might swim back in as just one. Promises, promises. We’ll know when she comes ashore.”

  “Shut up. You know I love you, don’t you, you dumb bastard?”

  “I know.”

  “In spite of all this, you rat, I still love you, God help me. Is this what all women put up with?”

  “Most,” I said. “Most. No explanations. No reason. Awful truths. The dog wanders. The dog comes home. The dog smiles. You hit him. He forgives you for forgiving him. And it’s back home to the kennel or a lonely life. I don’t want a lonely life. Do you?”

  “Jesus help me, no I don’t. Wipe your nose.”

  I wiped it. More blood.

  “I’m sorry,” she cried.

  “Don’t be. That’s the last thing for you to be. Don’t.”

  “Hold it!” said Henry. “Listen.”

  “What?” said everyone at once.

  “Feel it?” said Henry.

  “What, what, dammit?”